Episode 9: The Fattening Nutritionist

So since my nutritionist went and got into a horseback riding accident I am off to seek a new one for the next three weeks before I go to my one at school. Not my idea but it's what my therapist wants. Well here is how my ED saw it.

ED: You will not go see another nutritionist.
They will want you to eat more and more and you
won't have any control or say because they don't know you.

Me: But they all went to school. Why can't I trust a 

new nutritionist when I can trust my other two. 

ED: This one will be different. They won't know

you and your fat body and won't understand

how much you can balloon overnight. Plus, 

what if they make you go back on non-calorie

based meal plan. And what if they say no weighing again. 

Me: Simmer down. It's just for three weeks. It

can't do that much harm and they will just be doing

whatever they have been taught is best. I haven't

gone to school for this stuff so I guess I really shouldn't

be in control. 

ED: But they don't know you. Only you know you.

Plus, they can't be trusted. You don't know their motives. 

What if they just want to do rapid weight gain? What if 

they want you on high-fat? What if they make you completely

change?

Me: What if you shut up and let me go to at least

one session before judging the person I haven't 

even met? 

ED: You've become defiant now. See where that 

gets you in life. You won't survive without me!

Me: No I won't survive with you so F*** off.

Then my lovely therapist recommended I go see the only other nutritionist she knows. This nutritionist happens to specialize in treating obesity and last time I saw her she let me start cross country after only being out of treatment for 2 weeks....boy did ED change his tune. 

ED: Maybe you are on to something. A nutritionist

can only help you. Call this lady. 

Me: What? You want me to go see a nutritonist. 

ED: Then you won't feel so guilty about eating 

low-fat and starting to exercise again. They will

see your love for running and cycling and who knows

maybe they will let you start it. 

Me: But that will mean more calories and I didn't

think you wanted that. 

ED: Well sometimes nutritionist take it slow and 

let you exercise first and change meal plans later. 

This nutritionist sounds great. She doesn't specialize

in ED but instead in people who need to lose weight. She

is a perfect fit for you. 

Me: I get it. Because you think I need to lose

weight I need to go see this lady. I mean I am going

to have to go see her because she is who the therapist

wants, but don't think you will control these sessions.

No way in heck will my school nutritionist let me keep 

exercising even if this lady does approve it. 

ED: Just make the call and let's go meet this 

lovely woman. We shall see how she is. 

Me: So wait what if she says no to the exercise and 

increases my meal plan like the others you

said would. 

ED: Then we will go see another one who fits you better. 

Me: Whatever. Keep telling yourself that. 

Ugh you are getting so freaking annoying. 

So I e-mailed the nutritionist to see if I can afford her and if she is available. I guess I will go see her I am just scared because I played her so easily before and I really do wanna get better. Oh well.....it's just contacting her and then its just one appointment.